In the state of confuse...
what is a relationship?
i don't understand...
we can state relationship as
Lover?
Soulmate?
Friends?
Family?
Work partner???
izzit between human, we must been tied by all these terms?
sometime, i may confuse...
why?
i still hoping for something
meanwhile im having the things
that actually I desire to have it before.
Izzit...
a relationship,
must label with all these terms?
sometime,
i might confuse...
with the truth...
As time goes by
the person when you together for a long time..
I may feel,
theres something,
untell...
hiding in heart
even me
myself...
im hiding a lot...
a lot....
i been away for these few days v a ppl
im looking n reviewed myself...
i feel...
i in the state of confuse...
why?
i dunno...
should i discuss?
say out?
voice out?
been do dat....
is just a comma in the sentense...
but the comma will lead to the continuous until a fullstop.
A long sentense...
it may repeating the process on and on n so on...
when is the full stop?
do my life... my terms of "relationship" be describe as a paragraph of essay, a journal? or a novel? go on n on... when a sentense finish with a full stop, it begins with a new one?
i dont hope... but... im feeling it too...
dats why... im confuse...
Begining,
you may give yourself a lot of reasons to convince yourself to attach yourself to the ppl u like.
Then,
you fall in love with the own sweet time.
After that,
you will discover n start to review, how far u been there and izzit, it deviate from your own self?
Consequently,
you will find out, you been tired on certain things and starts to reveal your own... no matter how many promises u have made, but, sometime... you may reveal out... you're actually not the one as the other party thinks
Then,
again and again, your life, your action... is change back to normal for yourself and abnormal to your partner.
After all,
discuss... but izzit jus put yourself to a further point extending the sentense to avoid the full stop? when yourself facing the truth.
Or izzit you are maintaining the relationship?
End up,
Happy ever after or break up n continues hoping?
Seriously,
im confuse...
Somtime, im twisting myself around...
trying to attach myself to my normal life...
but...
i still lonely
Isnt i strong enough?
But, i dont wan to lose myself again for this aspect.
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1st time reading your blog..
ReplyDeleteallow me to agree with your poem-like post even though it seems a bit too late..
everything u've experienced, i think i have too.. recently.. not too long ago.. sacrifices ought to be made if one is trying to start a relationship, in my opinion.. those sacrifices must be from two parties and they must be willingful to do so.. and not with doubt and confusion.. anyway, do ponder yourself prudently and make a wise decision. Never look back once you've commited it. Never regret if u failed; at least you've tried it! Be grateful and be even better if you succeeded in upholding it..